I cannot believe that Thanksgiving is just around the corner, and it’s got me thinking to all the wonderful memories that I have shared with my family over the past years. As I get excited about this year’s holiday festivities, I am reminded that there will be one bold and heartbreaking difference between this year and the coming years and the past years, and it is the presence of my dear cousin, Brian. It has almost been 5 months since his passing, and everyday I still struggle with it. I have so much disbelief still that he is gone. The cousin that I grew up with and spent almost everything Thanksgiving will no longer be spending Thanksgiving with us. The cousin who I had eating contests with for three Thanksgivings will no longer be eating at the table with us. I am so overcome with emotions by these thoughts. For the first time, my stomach has dropped and it has truly hit me that the last goodbye I said at last year’s Thanksgiving would be the last goodbye we would ever say to each other.